There's a peace i've come to know
though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an echo in my soul
I can sing, It is well

Jesus, has overcome
and the grave is overwelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow,
No more pain
I will rise, on Eagle's wings
Before my God, fall on my kness, and rise
I will rise


There's a day that's drawing near
when the darkness breaks to light
and the shadow's disappear
and my faith shall be my eye's

Jesus, has overcome
and the grave is overwelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow,
No more pain
I will rise, on Eagle's wings
Before my God, fall on my knees, and rise
I will rise

And i hear the voice of many angels sing
Worthy is the Lamb
And I hear the cry of every longing heart
Worthy is the Lamb

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow,
No more pain
I will rise, on Eagle's wings
Before my God, fall on my knees, and rise
I will rise

argh...
kill me kill me kill me kill meeeeee...
I never spend so long on a GP essay before
and it is driving me CRaZYYYYYYYY
I almost finish with one para left after spending few days struggling with it
being tormented by it
and it got closed without savinggggg...

hahhhhhhhh..
kill me.
I'm wasting timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
ahhhhhhhhh...
hur.
HURRR.

hurrrr. I want to cry.
it's 6pm and i'm awake since 7am
and I'm still stuck in this stupid essay that I must re-write now.
hahhhhhhhhh....

hah... ok i'm ranting and ranting and ranting cause I wan to explode alr.
hur.

I left a part of me in Egypt, while the other half is trying to head to the land of Canaan.

there are somethings I didn't let go; somethings that I wouldn't let go...

somethings I didn't want to sacrifice.

I wanted the best of both worlds.

made myself feel really horrible; miserable this week.

deluding myself.

I really wanted to give up; let go and just forsake it all.

but I couldn't bring myself to...

We won't change until the pain of staying the same is worse than the pain of change.

and I honestly have enough,

if I continue on like this, I'll just walk myself away from everything.

but no. I will not. I must not. and I refuse to.

there are dreams to be fulfilled,
destiny to be reached,

battles to be truimphed,

and the greatest adventure that awaits.

let faith be my eyes.

I am going to Canaan.

and I am not going to die in the wilderness.

Lord, take the wheel.

my blog has entered a stage of non-existence. -.-

and this week I actually succeeded not coming online for so long!

pretty long!
and i'm only online now cause I want to do my GP research!

*pat myself on the back*

I forsee the death of my blog in days to come.

lol. and I'll soon be back to resurrect it once I triumphed from my exams!

hoho.

and yes, i will work very very very harrrddddddd...

lol. For Michael Phelps, he eats, sleeps and swims.

I'll eat, sleep and study!

(but no I won't eat the way he does... He consumes 12,000 calories a day!!!)

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

i bid you farewell, till I someday...

hi.
actually I have 2 stupid stuffs to blog about, but I'll leave it for another day...
I'm just here to say I'M EXCITEEEDDD!!!
hohoho.

haven blogged much, cause I dunno wht to blog abt sia!
put picture I oso a bit lazy then like recently not much pics to put.
haha...

okkkkk...
THIS IS WOAHHHHHHH.
some may understand.
seriously, no words can do justice to whatever that is happening.
even 'explosive' dun seem explosive enough.
haha. if you know wht I'm talking abt.
hoho. =DDD

I'M EXCITTEEEDDDDD!!!

none but You Jesus.
no one else but You.

I have 2 things to blog about, actually I think 3. lol. eh, no maybe 4. I'll just crap...

Firstly, today I had my first PE lesson after june hols, so it's time to take height & weight again! haha. I was quite looking forward, cause I think I should have lost some weight and I did! =DDD
1 or 2 kg. yeahhh... It's a good thing, cause I have been over-eating and i was seriously getting heavier and ahhhh rounder! soooo... yeahhh I lost weight! =DDD

annnddddd, I am still on my growing schedule! =D sometime ago, I decided that 160cm will be a good height to stop at, soooo, if I grow 1cm every year, by 21, I'll be 160cm tall. =) soooo I'm glad to announce that I did not stop at 156cm! I am now 157cm! hahahahaha... yaaaa I knowwww, I'm not veryyyy tall, quite short actuallyyy, but nvm. It doesn't really bother me. haha. I am living in self-denial, most of the time I don't realise how short I am cause I feel quite tall at home! (cause everyone else is just as short, or shorter. hahaha)

Also, today we get to know which game electives we are in for PE this term, and I'm happy cause I get to do rock climbing! =D maybe abseiling too! hoho.

thennnn, honestly, the rest of today I was not in the best of mood... I wasn't upset or anything like that, just quite sian. My timetable this term has been the longest of all the other timetables I got so far... and I really feel like whining and complaining a whole lot because of it, but I think I managed to keep my mouth shut. comparing to some classes that ends 505 everyday, I'm already better off, at least some days I end earlier. And I heard other JCs are having extra lessons until 6+/7+... hur hur...

and thus, my nightmare has finally arrived. It's books and books and books from now onn...
but on a good and optimistic note, my dream will come when I've endured the nightmare.
haha. =) yeahh, it's applicable! =D

sooooo after my nightmarish A levels, my (short term) dream is just to do anything and everything else except touch my textbooks during my 6 months holidays!!! anndddd I shall never ever ever ever ever ever come in contact with maths againnnn. I shall refrain from answering any form of maths question even if it's 1+1. ok I'm kidding, maybe I'll answer you if it's 1+1.

andddd I shall go to thailand for holiday, and shop like crazy and eat very shiok food! thenn I will have all the time and permission to go church as much as I want, and I'll have time to go learn photoshop and lighting. thenn, I'll have time to play around with photography and learn how to bake/cook/sew...

okkkk... my 'planned' activities are so exciting. lol. ok, but before alllll thattttt I'll have to endure the nightmare first!!! yeahhh! altho I think I seriously screwed up my mid years, I seriously don't think I'll pass anything, but nvm, all is not lost. I shall work hard from now on. hahhhhh...
alrightttttt, a lvls here I comeeeeeeee!!!!!!! =DDD

UNSOUND WENT CHOMP CHOMP!
(photos taken after eating at chomp chomp)

I'm going to remove my tagboard!
soooo... you can add comments to my entry posts instead if youuuu wannnntttt...
ok!
ok!
byeeeee.
=)

Introducinggggg... MY 'COLLECTION' OF HAIRBANDS!!!

so right now, I am left with 10 hairbands. I broke 5 hairbands, 4 are in the picture. The other is so spoilt, it's like beyond repair. hur hur... and my broken ones are the shiny ones! I need to be more careful. haha. But actually I broke more than 5... the black one is my 2nd or 3rd one, red is my 2nd one i think, aiyaaaa... long history of broken hairbands...

and I realise I have been wearing hairbands since sec 2! LOL. ok. I might just get some new hairbands. or like think of some new way to do my hair! hahahaaa...

you can like just assumed my previous post is like wenqi's BFF post's photo section.
LOL.
and yaaa... wenqi!
i agree we should go back to chomps to take that picture!
hahahaaa...
we can go on friday!
if everyone is free that is.
=)))
hahahaaa...
and we should like go take a set of new neoprints.
for fun.


i feel like screammingggggg...
for a lot of reasons la.
the stupid kind of scream not the I am very miserable kind of scream.
lol. you get wht i mean.
and I think I'm quite stupid,
like the funny sort of way...
so I'm quite amused.
lol. if that even makes sense.


oh oh oh.
I want to go cycling again!
like later!
hahahaaa...
cause I think it's quite good exercise,
I perspired so ya it means I exercised!
and I don't have to jog!
lol.
and I can travel faster so I can go explore pasir ris!
altho, I think it has quite the effect on my right leg like jogging.
heh. I feel olddddd yet young!
hahahaaa...
I'm not making sense.
I'm just typing whatever that's coming to my head.
hahahaaa...


Exams overrrr!!!
for now.
like 3 days.
I will go crazy then I'll come back to study.
I have plan a series of activities for myself!
ok. and I'll make sure I won't waste my time away!
soooooo...
first up!!!!
PACK MY ROOMMMMMM
it has never ever ever been this messy.
my piles of notes are everywhere.
it's not so bad when things are messy and you still know where things r.
but it's very bad when it's this messy,
and i can't find all my stuff!!!
aaaahhhhh...
unleashing my 'OH EVERYTHING MUST BE NEAT AND ORGANISED' beaver now.
LOL.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

Random photos, since we were sec 2 till now.

We really changed alot! =D

for the better of course!

definitely for the better.

I love you all too! =DDD

(post 'inspired' by wen's BFF post)

p.s I was seriously up to no good. Hahahaha...

but ehhhh... you all look fine in the photos! so no harm done.

yeahhhh...

Just a random picture that I took, but the words does mean alot.

I'm just thinking... I can't really put my thoughts into words but it's just that I have come to the realisation of how great is my God. How mighty and awesome and wonderful. Just how much He desires to be with each and every single one of us! That means you! (whoever you are, that's reading this. Doesn't even matter if you are christian or not. )

Sometimes, when we just don't seem to feel the presence of God anymore, we reduced Him to a mere man and think that like man, He could have walked away. That's not true, not true at all. On the contrary, we might be the ones that have walked away... God is like oxygen in the air, He's everywhere, He's there even when we don't see it when we don't feel it, and like oxygen, we need Him to stay alive.

It is so cliche to hear from lovers/boyfriend girlfriend/or whatever you call it these days, of how they wish time would stop, how it feels like eternity when they are together. Tell you a better deal, when we are finally with Jesus in heaven, time don't even EXIST! and the best part! It doesn't even have to 'feel' like eternity at all because it is REALLY ETERNITY! No one can love you more than the way God do, not even your spouse, your boyfriend/girlfriend, best friend, mother or father or whoever else.

God, You are truly mighty.

I love you God.

I really do.

hah!
ok. I'm here yet again.
not to psycho myself this time, but to ramble random noises
thennnn I'll go back to studying!
haha. =D

I cycled to Mannafest this morning! For morning prayer!
I woke up! yeahhh..
happy. haha.
shall talk more another day. =)

I like my hair!
just random.
altho, I'm sometimes annoyed by it, but yes, I have grown to love my hair!

OH.
i had alot of imaginations of what I would encounter while cycling to Mannafest,
as in not purposely go think abt it kind.
Like the imaginations I had before the burning paper thing for LTD.
haha. I think they are quite funny, altho, I kind of know,
nothing will happen and none of my imaginations will come to pass.
LOL. thank GOD.
ok. so, I was imagining, cause it will be early early morning, and it's still dark,
then while cycling, I have to cycle very fast,
in case I meet stray dogs,
then they will chase me!
then i will cycle faster and faster!
then I tot I might meet some strange man following me on a bicycle also.
then I will cycle very fast to get away!
but he'll catch up!
then I'll command him to go away in Jesus' name!
or angels will come and save me somehow.
but of course!
none of all these happen laaaaa...
I just tot my imaginations are quite funny so I wanted to share with you.
haha.

it was exciting cycling there actually!
lol. and the streets were not that quiet as I thought they may be.
and I got there in 10mins!
yeahhhh.

wah. in my own terms, GOD IS COOL!!!
like like the woaaahhh coolest ever...
aiya.
I'll blog more another time. now suspense suspense...
I go back study first! =D

I feel so nonsense.
lol. my train of thoughs dun quite link here but nvm.
and! I think the quote I saw in PNP is so hilarious in my own understanding/interpretation not in context.
but if I put here, you guys will kill me.
I think.
haha.

ok bye!
you'll see me soon!
I'll talk more!
and listen to you more if you got things to tell me! =D
(I'm not refering to anyone in particular) =D

I am here to psycho myself that I shall not whine.
I shall not whine.
I shall not whine.
I shall not whine.
I shall not whine.
yes.
I shall not whine.
because,
I won't die from just 2 weeks of exams and
I don't even have papers everyday.
yes.
altho they are just 10mins away,
but I shall not whine because I have to stay home and mug.
hah!
and I shall do my best for whatever time I have left for studying.
ok. I feel better now.
=)
ok. back to studying!


(I am seriously so amused by mad lips or is it mad libs? some game. XD)

there is nothing like sitting in the presence of God.
this is a special treasure that You have given me, there's nothing like it
and I'll protect it, guard it, with all that I have, with all of my life.
this is real.

Living The Difference 08

This is our GIDEON EXPERIENCE.
Hearts are moved, new things are birthed.
Lives are changed forever.
just like what Brother Stoneking says,
"You'll never be the same again..."


p.s I'll blog more another day, with pictures. =)

i know i said i wun be bloggin till after exams...
but seriously, i really dunno how else to voice this out other than here.
hur hur...
I don't think I have been quite myself lately.
and i dun quite seemed to be able to trace it back like since whn it started kind of thing...
but i guess, ironically, i'm feeling quite upset.
confused, lost, i dunno wht...
ironic cause now i should be actually feeling quite the opposite.
hurrrrr...

i am so dying to voice out wht's wrong,
but i dunno who to say to... w/o someone feeling hurt.
and i can't really bare saying it out either...
i dunno. hah. i'm confusing myself.

it's very irritating being so sensitive sometimes,
i over-read wht ppl say to me,
and so easily get hurt.
hahhhh...
wht am i supposed to do?
putting up a front is so totally suffocatingggg...

and ya, the wall is still there,
maybe it got thicker...
i dunnoooooo...

ok.i m rambling here.
i think i need to talk to someone.
hah... but who?
... ... ... ... ...
argh.

From God:
"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding."
Proverbs 3:5

I don't comprehend fully what's going on, but I know God told me to TRUST. and I don't deny the fact that often I have found myself comtemplating with the thought of giving up. thinking that maybe it would be easier back how it was...
such a lie.

where else could I possibly go? There's no other way to walk, no other path to take! It's all not worth it. How can I possibly turn my back on Him after what He has shown me, after all that He has done, the promises He has given me?
ohh so much more... can I possibly count His goodness?
it's measureless.

"Lord, to whom shall we go? Thou hast the words of eternal life." (John 6:68)

I don't want to go through the motion no more, I don't want to just simply go with the flow and continue to go in circles leading no where.
I don't know where exactly this path will take me, but I know I am going to follow Jesus.
and it is worth it all.


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SOCCER FINALS AT JALAN BESAR STADIUM!!!!

for once, I'm not the photographer. LOL.

but my attention span only lasted for first half of the match, I was walking ard talking nonsense with wong and meeting my friends from other schs all over the place.

LOL.

And after finals ended, me and wong decided to walk to potong pasir, 'cause she said it was near and I have been thinking of bubble tea somewhere deep inside my mind since I dunno when.

soooo... Overall, it was a fun day! hahaha.

oh ya. sooo happppyyyy... MJ won the school challenge for MONTAGE!

new printers, new bag and new batteries! lol.

and finallyyyy...

I hereby declare myself disappearing from the net until my mid yrs are over.

I seriously have to mug like i dunno what or I'll just screw my exams up again.

OKKKKKKK...

I WILL MISS YOU MY BLOG. SO MANY PHOTOS NOT UPLOADED!

but nvm... I will control control control...

noooooooo blogginggggg till exams are over!!!!

OK. SOOOOO BYE EVERYONE!

happy happy happy happyyyyy...
=DDDDDDDDDDDDD
hehhhh...
ok, this is still unbelievable but hahhhh...
happyyy... happyyy happyyy...
I spent dunno how long screaming my head off when I saw the email.
heh. so i'm happyyy happyy happyyy...

I won 3rd prize in the Youth category of NUS Montage photo competition!
and this year's theme is 'Tension'
and this photo's title is 'Breaking Point'.
(sp named it.)

I won a canon powershot and a tripod and some batteries.
haha. errr... I dunno wht batteries I won cause the name sounds very chim. lol

ok. yay! I'm happy and encouraged by this!
I hope i can somehow win a dslr one day!
dream dream dream...
I can dream abt it first!
haha...

and nope, I am not really going to tell you how i took this,
cause you will feel like killing me, although I have already told a few people.
heh.

ok byeeee!!!