I very unhappy today.... Sometimes ppl juz come without warning and hit u all the way to hell... My heart aching terribly bad.... Sighz.... I'm on the verge of tears liao.... Sometimes I juz feel tt Life sux... That the whole world is being unfair to mi? I guess, I'm juz not contented with wht I have... I very fortunate already.... Yet, I'm not satisfied.... Sometimes I juz hate myself.... I hate the current mi.... My attitude is juz not there.... What I behave b4 perhaps was a betta thing, I din not have tt muz troubles then.... Band is upsetting mi these days.... Which shouldn't be the case.... Honestly, I bored.... Jealous? Juz can't stand it.... Sometimes it makes no differences when I am gone.... Nothing changes even if I din not exist.... Sometimes I feel that the meaning of life is nothing.... It's just like a virtual game for mi perhaps.... But normally I do not stand out like I wished however hard I tried.... My mind is so filled with swirling thoughts, I juz can't single each of them out.... They are all in a big mess.... My mood swings terribly fast? And hard to get it back to normal? It's juz mi I guess... Juz leave mi alone when I have bad mood.... Normally I dun talk.... If I do, perhaps I muz irritate u and cause an arguement which I din realli mean it.... What happen today I do not wish to explain.... I juz hope I can do things betta.... I do not wan to be left alone... Neither would I like to be lacking behind.... I can be very ambitious I agree.... TT's juz mi I guess.... Happi or not... You have to accept it....