I'm in a horrible mess up mood

whoa my eyes were swollen this morning lor... so uncomfortable... guess coz of ytd's emotional breakdown la... sighz... it's getting irritating these days!!! ARGH! Was in such a bad mood... And I haf to run X-COUNTRY!!!! argh... I hate to run... I rather sit down and slack... sheesh... I no stamina le la... 3.2km is siaox to mi... haiz... well glad tt it's fins...
Y is everything pissing mi!!! haiz I'm a ultimate slacker... hate tt... piano exam so near!!! my scales sux!!! I HATE my brother! Irritating pig !!! argh! the sight of him annoys mi.... tmr is his birthdae and I not gonna care! I'm not even welcome home or invited to his damn party... y should I care even... Hu cares abt coming to his party... asshole... I rather stare at space then seeing him and his bunch of frens going crazy... Go his room scream at mi.... hu he tink he is.... come home first thing mux check... I got go his room nots.... if I say no HE SHOW MI EVIDENCE LAR!!!! He thinks his King and the rest of this family is wht his servants???? orderly us around like he is the biggest... no respect... He can juz dream.... he's an asshole to mi la... jolly well fuck off... irritating... need help then wan to ask mi he will keep pestering... go his room ask him dun do this or tt... not even nagging I toking nicely kaes! wht I get huh? he's complains! childish... he tink he's soooo "POPULAR" in his class tt he was chosen by the class to be monitor... ya? a stupid and corrupted idiot... no sense of responsibility... ppl lend him things he can return wif it not at orginal condition... enuff of him! whteva la... I tink he had practically use every single vulgar word existing on this world on mi le la... FINE LAR I'M a bitch kaeS! u are an asshole.... fucked off.... sorry to being so mean abt hime... maby some of his other frens think he damn nice whteva... budden he's the person I hate.... irritating... the thought of him is gifing mi a bad mood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PIANO!!!! argh... I wan to cry liao lar... tinking of the piano... pay so mux for the test and classes... I like so slack cann... if I dun do well I gonna disappoint my mum... yet I haven fins scales!!! like few days away.... then I can't get anything right!!!!!! I oso cannot play anitime I wan... onli can evening... tt is the time which I haf no mood to play.... I dun like practising in evenings... I hate it I dun noe y... my dad sleeping afternoon I oso cannot play... then actually I not even suppose to play in evenings oso... Everyone is watching tv and I am banging the piano beside.... it's rude well but I dun haf other time alreadi I can't play in morning, noon afternoon night,evening.... aiya whole day oso got ppl watching tv one la... budden mum allows it so I still haf to prac in evenings and nite... I whole day in sch then go home haf to face the piano make mi so frustrated... I am in a horrible mess la...
I guess tt is y I broke down ytd lor... i tink I was scary ytd la... screaming my head off... I throwing everything on the table to the floor... the floor was filled wif files, pens, books, tored paper... I even tore my bro's foto... I very annoyed kaes... I noe la I very bad... if I dun find sth to vent out I will explode la...
I hate my extreme moods... it's either SOOOOOOOOOO happi or SOOOOOOOOO upset I realised.... I duno... once I get upset abt sth... things tt ever make mi upset start gushing back and I juz feel more horrible... maby pms la...haiz... hate this I hate this!!! maby after piano exam I feel betta ba... at least it's one last prob in my mind...