I am basically very mixed up right now. I am experiencing a WHOLE range of emotions today, all the way from happy to upset to being VERY ANNOYED AND PISSED! (*damn) What am i suppose to feel right now? I just feel like ranting and being sarcastic. (Please pardon me.)



I have been messed up for two consecutive days already, and i am getting rather contradicting. Getting upset and happy for the same reason. (bet my body system might break down soon.)



Let's define the meaning of work, no let me be more specific, part-time work. Now that I've a job, have a fixed income, I have money to spend and I learn things from it. Am I suppose to feel delighted? That FINALLY i am out of bankruptsy, that FINALLY i have money to "squander" on, that FOR ONCE i don't have complain of being poor?



I do pay sacrifices, now that I have lesser time for leisure, lesser time to study, lesser time to slack. (is it good?) But I am practically living a routine life, i am just hoping I find amusement out of it. At least, i would not reach a bored stage. (not yet.) Let me tell you my daily routine, I wake up at 9am, report for work at 10am and it ends at 4pm. I then go home, practise my piano (hey! i practise EVERYDAY NOW!) and i know i should be doing homework, but after being deprived of entertainment (in terms of TV, computer, movies, etc.), i felt rather reluctant to do so. My life's getting rather mundane, if you get what i mean. (oh man, why do i feel like Krishna again.)



And i was told yesterday, tuition starts next week (saturday), but i have to work! (some kind of unpredictability in life, sadly i don't really like it.) They clashed! (*damn so what am i suppose to do now?) Now i have to change my off day at work to saturday, to accommodate tuition into my already hectic life. Doesn't that mean I have to work after band on tuesday too? (my off day is on tuesday.) That's killing me, besides I am already working after band on thursday. Tell me, is that madness? (a break down seems quite imminent.)



Now, here come the contradicting part! I asked boss lady if i can change my off day, then on tuesday i work from 4pm to 10pm. She told me I was only able to work at that timing when the person in-charged for that timing is off. Then she allowed me to off on saturday too. In conclusion, I HAVE 3 OFF DAYS NOW! (now i WAS happy.) But after pondering over it a while, I realise i would earn less money, by about $40+! (now I AM UPSET.)



Therefore, I came up with another idea, I want to work on saturday morning, 9am to 2pm. I will ask boss lady tomorrow. I hope this idea would be realise.



I am utterly confused right now. VERY VERY CONFUSED. I am experiencing too many different emotions. It's complicating the whole system. (*RAHHHHSSSSSSSSSS!) (ignore that.)



(*just f*** up.)