It's a new year, it's a fresh start...



There are so many changes, ain't they all a BIG SURPRISE???? It's unfair, it's upsetting, but hey! What can we do? It's a bad start to already experience DISAPPOINTMENT on the VERY FIRST period of the day. There goes our sec 4 lvl... Just RIGHT ON TOP of us. (oh well.)



I have been looking forward to go to the top level all these times. I very much believe, it's not only me who shares the same sentiments. (I WANT MY SEC 4 LVL.) But, there's nothing that can be done. It's has been forever that the 4th level is the sec four's level and the 3rd level is the sec 3's level and so on. A sudden change seem quite overwhelming.



What's more, our school mission is changed! And no, I'm not happy with the new changes. From women of substance to what? Leaders of character?!? I prefer the old one. It seems more profound in some sense. I mean, leaders of character? Isn't that very cliche? It's like almost the same in every school? Everywhere seems to be talking about nurturing leaders.



Maybe it's just our mindset, that we can't seem to accomodate change. But, it seems too much... New people indeed come new changes.



Now we have to face that UGLY, DISGUSTING yellow walls for another year. Thank you! And now we can look up, and who we see? JUNIORS.



Somehow, the cedar spirit is dying. Do you still feel it there? It's different than before, than what I used to know it's like... What a brilliant way to spend the last year in school. I hope it won't get any worse. IT'S BAD ENOUGH ALREADY.



First, it's band, changes here, changes there. Then it's school, and more changes! That's life huh? I get it already.



I trying to stay awake! It's so much better than last year. I bothered and I'm struggling to stay awake. It's not like i want to sleep, I don't want to miss any crucial information. But, I'm already sleeping early at night! What are the chances of that? I used to sleep at 1am, 2am last year. It's like 11pm nowadays? You think I enjoy sleeping? You are wrong. I dislike VERY MUCH to sleep. That's why, I always sleep late at night. That's why, I can't keep myself awake in the morning. It has been like FOREVER that my sleeping habits has been like this. Since primary school? I never recall sleeping early. And when i do, it's worse in the morning. I'm practically floating... Now, what am i suppose to do? Sleep early or not? I need time to change the sleeping habits. But anyway, I'm very determined to stop myself from dozing off in class. That's it.



Writing this entry is so saddening all of the sudden. Oh well, that's life isn't it?