but seriously, i really dunno how else to voice this out other than here.
hur hur...
I don't think I have been quite myself lately.
and i dun quite seemed to be able to trace it back like since whn it started kind of thing...
but i guess, ironically, i'm feeling quite upset.
confused, lost, i dunno wht...
ironic cause now i should be actually feeling quite the opposite.
hurrrrr...
i am so dying to voice out wht's wrong,
but i dunno who to say to... w/o someone feeling hurt.
and i can't really bare saying it out either...
i dunno. hah. i'm confusing myself.
it's very irritating being so sensitive sometimes,
i over-read wht ppl say to me,
and so easily get hurt.
hahhhh...
wht am i supposed to do?
putting up a front is so totally suffocatingggg...
and ya, the wall is still there,
maybe it got thicker...
i dunnoooooo...
ok.i m rambling here.
i think i need to talk to someone.
hah... but who?
... ... ... ... ...
From God:
"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding."
Proverbs 3:5
I don't comprehend fully what's going on, but I know God told me to TRUST. and I don't deny the fact that often I have found myself comtemplating with the thought of giving up. thinking that maybe it would be easier back how it was...
such a lie.
where else could I possibly go? There's no other way to walk, no other path to take! It's all not worth it. How can I possibly turn my back on Him after what He has shown me, after all that He has done, the promises He has given me?
ohh so much more... can I possibly count His goodness?
it's measureless.
"Lord, to whom shall we go? Thou hast the words of eternal life." (John 6:68)
I don't want to go through the motion no more, I don't want to just simply go with the flow and continue to go in circles leading no where.
I don't know where exactly this path will take me, but I know I am going to follow Jesus.
and it is worth it all.
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