I left a part of me in Egypt, while the other half is trying to head to the land of Canaan.

there are somethings I didn't let go; somethings that I wouldn't let go...

somethings I didn't want to sacrifice.

I wanted the best of both worlds.

made myself feel really horrible; miserable this week.

deluding myself.

I really wanted to give up; let go and just forsake it all.

but I couldn't bring myself to...

We won't change until the pain of staying the same is worse than the pain of change.

and I honestly have enough,

if I continue on like this, I'll just walk myself away from everything.

but no. I will not. I must not. and I refuse to.

there are dreams to be fulfilled,
destiny to be reached,

battles to be truimphed,

and the greatest adventure that awaits.

let faith be my eyes.

I am going to Canaan.

and I am not going to die in the wilderness.

Lord, take the wheel.