A very extremely good morning to all. I have intentions to stay up and study and yes it's a crazy idea, yet I still do it ever since it's introduction in secondary school. I'm desperate for time! (which I have wasted some a while back, and maybe wasting now right here...)

I'm excited about my coming holidays (I know it's still early to talk about it but it's a good motivation for me to study =P), because for the first time, I have NO homework, NO full-time job (only a part-time job, which means I still have sufficient allowance, plus more time to do something useful), MORE time, and my office is few bus stops down church! Gave some thoughts to what I've in mind for this coming holidays and now thinking about it, I should go pray and ask God about it as well. My plans may be good, but He may have better plans that I didn't think of! =)

Grace asked me today, "so what is your purpose?", I didn't expected it and for a moment, I didn't know how to answer... I just told her, I didn't know, it wasn't explicit from God, but then later, I thought I may have forgotten it. This is a call for me to go seek and ask God again. God is not a hide-and-seek god, He is a seek and find God!

Jeremiah 29:13
"13 And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart."

This is like one of my favourite scripture (and thus one of my favourite song "I Will Search"). It's not because He isn't speaking that we are not hearing anything from Him, but rather, we are not listening or seeking enough. God should not be just a supplement or a good thing in my life. He is the source of my life, like how I need oxygen to live.

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It's sermon notes by Rev Raymond Woodward and they are really good! (note to self: I need to expand my vocab and find more words that describe 'good') I read some today (cause Joyce so kindly printed them for me), and they were really (I just realise how I can describe this feeling with...) like how this scripture puts it:

Hebrews 4:12-13
"12 For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. 13 And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are naked and open to the eyes of Him to whom we must give account."

Writing or speaking (or even plain talking) has never been THE THING for me, I always brush it aside and accepted my lack of proficiency in expressing myself. However, I think I can do better, this two are still mostly the main ways of communication, why should I take like a roundabout way just to express a single idea when maybe I could articulate it simply yet powerfully in a single sentence? (though that does comes with age and wisdom, but still, I don't have 20 years down the road, so I should just tap on God's wisdom that's there for us if we seek after it right now.)

I'm 19 and just when I'm finally getting used to being 19, in about 2 months plus plus, I am turning 20. NO! Hello bullet train of life! TOO FAST! Trying to comfort myself, here's what Morris from "Tuesdays with Morris" said:

"People are afraid of getting old because they haven't found a meaning in their life."
"It's because this society worships the youth"
"I am not afraid of being old, it's not deteriorationg, it's progress."
"There's a time for me to be 22 and 78 and now it's my time to be 78."

Yet again, all this can amount to nothing if it's just all talk and no action. Talking about action, looking at the time right now, it's time I get into action too! Writing all these here is just to voice my thoughts. I think I can talk on forever if someone can listen forever, which is not possible... I'm still a blue. =)

Time to fly!